Clear Enough

Today I learned about :

Moving On is So Damn Hard

If you're not ready to be hurt, then you're not ready to be loved or to loved

I still Love You with all the pieces

wept inside

why does this could be ruined this much? why does theres no time machine? dear you, you dont know how it feels to read all your heart-speak without knowing who actually you talking to. its me. yea, i read all of them. and u know what? THIS SHOULDNT BE LIKE THIS. like seriously, you've got them wrong. to ta lly wrong! and now, i really dont know what to do cause yes I know you're right that I already had a boyfriend but I just want you to know the truth! and I dont know with whom I should share this hurt-ness. Every song I've listened always remind me of you. Every bali's bracelets, its always remind me of July 29th 2010. That may not be the important thing for u, but for me, u know what? damn its such a heaven. Every time I see my profile twitter, the background, you said that to me. "Just be who you want to be, NOT others want to see". When can I see u like that again? When can I heard all your jokes again? When can I see your name as the only one who greet me on msn when I listening to "Ketika Kau Menyapa"? When can I heard you ask me what's my favorite songs again? When can I see you was searching the chord just to played my favorite songs? WHEN CAN I? Just tell me the truth, yea I know truth may hurts but I have to know them. All of them. Then to waiting in vain, like this? hell!!! Please, tell me the clue. I'm wept inside...cause I love you with all that I am.

Well I know I have to let you go, but this is harder than I thought before. You've given me a zillion beautiful moments, sweet words, and an overwhelmed eye contacts...just so you know, those are the precious things I ever had. And I thought you should know that this feeling takin control of me and I cant handle it. I can't let her win now. I still can't.

If the end of the narrative text's that I used when pratical exams was "The guys just wept". Then this post will end with "The writer just wept"...

i miss...everything about you :(

Sometimes I'm scared of you, but all i really want is to hold you tight and i need you to here by my side always. no matter what they say, i dont care. and i really care about us. Sometimes i need to realize that i dont just miss you.................i miss us♥♥♥♥♥♥

Patience

Patience is all I have to thinking about. I have to be patient. But sometimes I got bored. Why do I have to waiting? How can to show all my feelings going so hard? I've tried, but I cant. I remembered about 'konflik monsar', I cant "ngalus" to him again. you know who. Intel of course. well, now idk why i hate him. so effin much. much much muchoo. grr. i'm out.

H.e.a.v.e.n

Hey ! whats up? you know what it feels like when you accidentally meet the one you like the most, and you've tried not to look them in the eyes cause you know you'll be so annoying. (salting). then u're going to see another people but you cant cause actually you just want to see his eyes. My dance coach told me that You shouldnt be 'salting' when u meet them, you shouldnt let him know that u like them. u have to be normal and the most important thing is "STAY COOL". so i've tried to do those things. when my dad called me that he's going to pick me up at school, but then I said that i want to play before u pick me up, after that Azizah and Zela text and called me and said that INTEL was there. I was happy, shock, and screaming out loud even tho there was my teacher there haha. but I DONT CARE whoopsy. and I told Annisa bout that and we just out from Aula, and ran to "that place". I saw Azizah and Zela was still there. I called them but A**e* wont let them go, so Me and Annisa was dont know what to do. then we just keep walking and walking around that place. God bless us, we meet Azizah and Zela in the different place near that place, then they bring us to "that place" but before we're arrived, I meet Intel and I just cant stop smiling, but then I remembered about some tips from my Dance Coach, so I did that. But u know what it feels like when u're trying to keep walking and turn around and u're trying to see another people while the one you like the most are still watching u secretly? and when u're arrived at home, he greet u on msn? omygod. it was my 1st day of heaven on this week. theres still 3 of them. I got four !!! But, who knows what will happen today? Maybe God bless me that much and He gives me more? I hope so. Bye everyone :)

XOXO. nadyapy

New this week...

HEY THERE !! yap ! I'm back with ma friends.Tasya and Nabila.

and I just want to sharing with you all my dearest readers, I LOVE THIS WEEK
something's happen and I'm surprised.
actually theres so many surprising things this week so then I LOVE THIS WEEK :p
Ok that I'm going to introduce my friends :

First, Tasya Oesricha Pakki
Fb: Tasya Oesricha
msn : tasyaaang@htm
twitter : @tasyop

She's the one who was cut my pony and made it so-perfectly-good-enough.
Thank you dearie !!!

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This one is Rizka Nabila Putri Amran
Fb : Rizka Nabila Amran
msn : love.putih@htm
twitter : @nabilanabs

She's my new chairmate !! we're so match cause we got the same things :
1. narsism
2. beautiful (haha ! kidding !)
3. we're getting more crazy day by day

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THIS IS ME :p
HAHA !

Nadya Anastasya Putri MONKEY (kidding)
Fb: Nadya Anastasya Putri Yasmeen
msn : ndyasponge@htm
twitter: @nadyapy

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and this is US !


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xoxo
nads

It sucks

Hey there lovely readers. I dont know why I feel bad right now. Feeling more more bad each day. Tho INTEL made me so damn happy 2 days ago but then He's weird. He said that we'll hang out but than I said ''Yes, I'm in but idk when is the right time'' and he said ''me too. Ok then I'll let you know as soon as possible. I'll text you. but sorry, I'm about to off and go to bed right now. So, I'll see you later. Byee'' and till now.... He doesnt text me A-NY-THI-NG. At least he can greet me on msn cause I see he was online, and things going crazy so I made a conversation with him and my girls. And he just like read all the chat and wrote ''.'' ''..'' ''...'' and then I said ''...till a thousand times?Ha ha'' cause that times I'm really really upset idk why. And then he's continue wrote ''....'' ''.....'' and he stopped it and well, idk. Maybe he just read all chats. And then I said ''i'll be right back. Gonna watch a MOVIES. Bye'' and he left the conversation. And I was just screaming in my deepest heart. Idk why I really hate him right now. I do. I really do. But I do LIKES him. Maybe I can't say that I LOVE HIM cause he's not my something and I'm not his something. Its just sad...... Ok, I'm out. Good-between-night-and-morning you guys. ''Have a nice dream''. xoxo

Ps: for you, ''someone out there'' I wish you realize that you're a GUY. U're not a boy anymore. U're in highschool so...BE GENTLE. I know that if u read this, u'll realize that its you. Yeah, it is. so please..... #uknowhatimean